AS BILL SEES IT, Question 23a

What false Gods have you previously worshiped?  Are you still hanging onto these false Gods?

I used to have many false Gods in my life:  work, money, sex, food, people (doctors, husband), places (my home), drugs (anti-depressants), clothes, material possessions, where I lived, what I owned, how many toys I had, how many homes I owned, what kind of cars I drove, what jewelry I had, who I had for a friend, if I had a person to do my cleaning - status symbols.  All of these played a very important role in my life.  If I didn't measure up, I had to work harder.

Sometimes I still struggle with them.  For instance, today I was looking at cell phones and thinking about changing my plan.  The one I have doesn't have texting on it and everyone I know has it - even my grandchildren!  These thoughts were going through my head as I was thinking about changing to a more expensive plan - which I don't even need at this point.  Why was I?  Part of it was the draw of getting a new phone.  "So why not get one like everyone else?  They all have texting!"

I can fall right into the trap very easily...letting my wants get in the way.  They blind me to what is important in my life and I forget to ask God (HP) for help. I forget to ask what his will is for me.  (When I remember to ask for help, it always comes).

In this case, the answer I received was to step back and pause - to look at the whole picture - I needed to ask myself, "Is this something I need Norinne or is it something I want?"  With the pause also came my answer - a definite no.