Saturday, October 30, 2010

AS BILL SEES IT, Question 12a

Is pride holding you back from progress?  How?

Pride sneaks into my life in subtle ways.  One way that occurs the most is the voice that tells me I don't need help, I can do this on my own.  Another is when I want to eat something inappropriate and deny what is going on.  Ultimately, these behaviors will lead me into relapse.

In program there is the saying, "Denial of the truth leads to destruction."  Every time I allow pride to interfere with my recovery, I separate myself from God (HP).  When this happens, desperation reappears in my life and for me, desperation will take me back face first into the food.

I don't know how many more relapses I have in me - and I'm not willing to chance it.  (I remember the pain I was in before program and in my last relapse.  It occurred in all areas of my life; spiritual, emotional and physical).  I don't ever want to go back there again.

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