AS BILL SEES IT, Question 8c

Do you turn to God when things don't go your way?  Or, do you accept and still continue to trust that God is still taking care of you in a way that you cannot take care of yourself?

In the past, I only turned to God (HP) when things didn't go my way. Otherwise, I didn't need his help - I did just fine on my own.  Even then I fought - kicking and screaming to the very end; I would try everything before I gave in.  I literally had to feel backed into a corner before I gave up.

• Today, whenever I feel an inkling of discomfort emotionally, I go to God [HP] for help.  

• In the past, I ate to numb out and shut down my emotions.  

• Today, I choose not to eat.  

• In the past, I never allowed myself to feel, so never knew how I felt.  

• Today, I'm learning how to feel with Gods [HP's] help.  

• In the past I thought the negative things that were happening to me, were things God was doing to me.  

• Today I understand humans have been given free will.  The events happening in my life are to help me in some way or to help someone else in some way.

If someone were to have told me, when I started in program, that my whole being and my whole belief system was going to change, I would not have believed them.  I would have shaken my head and walked away.   These changes have occurred in my life!

Even after many years of abstinence and a long, long time in program, it didn't happen until I started on a spiritual quest.  I wanted the third leg of the stool.  By working it ONE DAY AT A TIME, I've seen how with God's [HP's] help, I've been able to heal from my past and now use it to help others in program - something I would never have thought possible.  (At the time I never thought I would heal from it, let alone help someone else.)

The promises are coming true in my life everyday - it works, it really does!