Do you feel that your abstinence is a gift from God? If so is this all you can expect from him?
For quite some time I took my abstinence for granted. I had to learn that I needed to give my food to God (HP). I wrote it down and called it in to my sponsor, but I was still holding onto some control. This control was what was causing me problems.
I started to recognize it one day when I was struggling with eating one of my snacks. It was cooked but the smell was making me nauseous. So I said a prayer, telling God (HP) that if he wanted me to eat it, he was going to have to help me. The telephone rang - it was a program person. We talked for about 5 minutes and when I hung up, I sat down and ate my snack. I completely forgot about feeling sick!
That was the first time I surrendered my food to God (HP). When I realized what had just happened, I was amazed. I thought to myself, "If I do this all of the time, I probably won't struggle when I go to the grocery store or when my husband snacks at night."
It took me several more times (of struggle) before I was completely willing to give God (HP) my food. Now the things I used to struggle with, I don't anymore. It has shown me that all I have to do is ask God (HP) for help.
I don't think there are any limits or restrictions on what God (HP) is willing to do for me...all I have to do is ask.
I would like to invite you to share your thoughts and experiences - we can all help each other on this exciting recovery journey!
Norinne M.
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