Monday, October 11, 2010

AS BILL SEES IT, Question 8a

Do you feel that your abstinence is a gift from God?  If so is this all you can expect from him?

For quite some time I took my abstinence for granted.  I had to learn that I needed to give my food to God (HP). I wrote it down and called it in to my sponsor, but I was still holding onto some controlThis control was what was causing me problems.

I started to recognize it one day when I was struggling with eating one of my snacks.  It was cooked but the smell was making me nauseous.  So I said a prayer, telling God (HP) that if he wanted me to eat it, he was going to have to help me.  The telephone rang - it was a program person.  We talked for about 5 minutes and when I hung up, I sat down and ate my snack.  I completely forgot about feeling sick!

That was the first time I surrendered my food to God (HP).  When I realized what had just happened, I was amazed.  I thought to myself, "If I do this all of the time, I probably won't struggle when I go to the grocery store or when my husband snacks at night."

It took me several more times (of struggle) before I was completely willing to give God (HP) my food.  Now the things I used to struggle with, I don't anymore.  It  has shown me that all I have to do is ask God (HP) for help. 

I don't think there are any limits or restrictions on what God (HP) is willing to do for me...all I have to do is ask.


I would like to invite you to share your thoughts and experiences - we can all help each other on this exciting recovery journey! 

Norinne M. 

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