AS BILL SEES IT, Question 10b

Do you work on nourishing the good and changing the bad?

Working the 12 Steps is a very interesting process.  When I didn't think I was making any progress, the people around me (in the rooms) surprised me by pointing out the changes.

Then there were the days I felt like I was on a fast moving train and wanted it to slow down (too many changes were happening).  I realized that God (HP) was in charge and there was nothing I could do; as much as I tried to dig my heels in, it wouldn't stop the train.

As time passed, I was able to recognize the changes in myself and the area's where I needed to continue to work.  When I didn't, I got nudges from God (HP).  They came by way of my seeing (or hearing) where I made a mistake, something in someones share, a feeling in my gut, a billboard, a sign on a church, something read, a meditation, etc.

As long as I'm abstinent, I can hear the message from my Higher Power and be willing to take action.  These two components are very important to "nourishing the good and changing the bad."

The whole healing process is like a flowering plant - there are several things needed for it to grow; sunlight (God/HP), fertilizer/water (food - abstinence), proper soil (12 Step program).  Neither one of us - myself or the flowering plant, can grow in the dark (my addiction). 

I need to have the necessary conditions to nurture myself.  The 12 Step program has taught me how to do this by introducing me to a Higher Power, showing me I need to be abstinent, having me work the steps and helping me to recognize I deserve all of it.