Have you taken your life into program or have you taken your program into life? What is the difference?
My program comes first, no matter what. This means I have to take my program into life. (If I don't have a program, I won't have a life).
I've tried many times to fit program into my life instead of the other way around. This meant I didn't give the time necessary to program. I didn't give it top priority. Instead, my time was given to outside issues. Everything else became more important and I lost my focus - which is to stay abstinent.
Food became more important. I forgot about the pain from my binging; I forgot how much material possessions and money controlled my thoughts and I forgot how the obsession to have more consumed my every thought. Eventually program went by the wayside and food took over again. I was back into my more syndrome; a full fledged relapse.
So far, this has happened twice. (I'm a slow learner). The bottom line is I need to work my program 100% of the time - everywhere I go - no vacations or time off allowed. Then, whatever time I have left can be applied to other activities - like life.
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