It's taken me a long time to find an equal balance between program and the outside world. It seemed like it was always fighting me (the outside world), whenever I tried to balance the two. Any time I tried to share part of myself with the outside world - the outside world wanted more. If I gave more, the outside world wanted even more. Suffice to say, my program suffered and my life always ended up unbalanced.
UNTIL I started working a Spiritual program. When I sought God, invited him into all areas of my life, asked him for help with everything; changes started happening. A peace slowly settled over me. Things started to bother me less; it didn't matter what others thought or said. I stopped having an agenda. Money lost it's importance. Anger started to dissipate.
Now I ask God what it is I need to do - for program and for others outside of program. Then I wait for an answer.
"The answers will come if your own house is in order."
A.A. Big Book, pg 164
I am receiving answers. When I struggle with having to make a decision (in all areas of my life, not just program) I ask my Higher Power for help. The answers come!
Just lately I felt the need to go to a program convention. It fell on the weekend of my wedding anniversary so I asked God what I should do. The answer I received was to talk to my husband, tell him how I was feeling and what I needed. Further, I had to ask him how he felt about my being gone on our special day. I had to be open to not going if he was upset by it. I was able to go and we celebrated the following weekend.
When I ask, sit back and listen...and most of all, am patient, the answers come. BUT FIRST, I have to be abstinent.
This program is amazing. Everyday I am learning and growing, thanks to my Higher Power and the people in the rooms.
This program is amazing. Everyday I am learning and growing, thanks to my Higher Power and the people in the rooms.
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