Friday, November 12, 2010

AS BILL SEES IT, Question 16b

What is your reaction to never eating like a normal eater?

When I first started coming to program and heard about members abstaining from specific foods, I was angry.  I didn't want anyone to mess with my food  -  I DIDN'T WANT ANYONE TO TAKE MY FIX AWAY.  It's because I was active - face first in the food.  I had no clarity of mind and nothing to compare my life with.  I had no idea what it would be like to live life abstinently.

Then I saw and heard the changes in members who were abstinent.  It was a great motivator.  I wanted what they had and became willing to do whatever I had to receive what I saw on their faces - joy, peace and serenity.

The journey I've been on since has been very rewarding. As much as I hate CHANGE, my recovery is very important to me. What I once thought was not normal [the new way I learned to eat] has become normal for me:  I see no difference anymore between how I eat compared to anyone else.

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